Steps and Mess
All this time
I’ve been asking why
“Why did I do this?”
“Why am I doing this?”
“Why can’t I change?”
“Why am I not changing?”
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Trying to find the answers,
Eagerly I pushed myself to enter the maze called life,
As I go deeper, the ray of light that guided me started to fade
The walls that build up this maze seems to grow taller
The road in front seems darker and darker.
I can no longer see where this path I’m taking will lead me.
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How far did I go?
How long did I take?
What did I do?
I lost count.
I lost myself.
I’m lost.
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I thought if I keep moving forward
I’ll find my way out of this place.
But why is it that,
The steps I took, the changes I’ve made,
All of it brought me to the same old mess?
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18072018
1450 HRS