Complicated Me

I feel sorry for all the people who crosses paths with me.

I know, sometimes they feel unwanted or uneasy with my sudden mood changes. i feel bad, really.

Sometimes, I want to be close, sometimes I just want to distance myself from everyone. It’s confusing, really. Even I am confused with myself, most of the time.

I feel so lonely but I don’t want to talk to anyone. sometimes I feel so far away from the people close to me. Sometimes I feel so close to the people far away from me. Sometimes I feel lonely even with the people surrounding me.

It’s not even their fault, but i feel like this feeling I have affects them too. And I feel terribly sorry for that.

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1607HRS

How the beach calms me

I love the beach

I love laying down on the carpet of sands,

Beneath the night sky glittered with stars,

Lulled by the sound of waves that gushes through the sea,

Just watch and listen, it washes your fear and anxiety.

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You know what? Laying here under the night sky, makes me realize just how small we are in this vast universe. That there’s a lot more to explore, and a lot of things to be grateful of. Like how pretty the sky can be, how soothing the sounds of nature can be. If you could just stop and take a minute to look at these beauties the nature could offer, you would appreciate a lot more than you can think of.

It’s a natural therapy, you see. And that is why I love the beach.

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Blue & You

Today, I’m feeling blue.

The thoughts of how to get this mend,

I had no clue.

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We used to be inseparable,

As fixed as glue,

But now we seem breakable,

So what should I do?

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Today, I’m feeling blue

I guess the reason, is you.

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1725 HRS