Would you?

If you see the dark side of me

Would you still love me the same?

Lies aside, I know you won’t

If I can’t do it, why would you.

…

Written on,

17052020

1400HRS

 

Steps and Mess

All this time

I’ve been asking why

“Why did I do this?”

“Why am I doing this?”

“Why can’t I change?”

“Why am I not changing?”

…

Trying to find the answers,

Eagerly I pushed myself to enter the maze called life,

As I go deeper, the ray of light that guided me started to fade

The walls that build up this maze seems to grow taller

The road in front seems darker and darker.

I can no longer see where this path I’m taking will lead me.

…

How far did I go?

How long did I take?

What did I do?

I lost count.

I lost myself.

I’m lost.

…

I thought if I keep moving forward

I’ll find my way out of this place.

But why is it that,

The steps I took, the changes I’ve made,

All of it brought me to the same old mess?

…

18072018

1450 HRS

Abandon Who?

Today I sit under the shade of a tree

I asked,

“God, why did you abandon me?”

…

I studied hard to earn my degree,

Yet why it won’t satisfy me?

I worked night and day for money,

Yet my pocket seems always empty.

…

I live together with my lovely family,

Yet why do I feel lonely?

I enjoyed life with friends and luxury,

Yet the joy feels temporary.

…

I pretty much have everything,

But it feels like a piece is missing.

Oh, my heart knows the thing

It was You that I was missing.

…

 I sit and gazed on the sky painted blue

“God, why did I abandon You?”

…

01082017

1851 HRS